// i’m not okay (i promise) //

i just don’t wanna be

so many things

and now that i see

i just wanna sing

i just wanna breathe

i just wanna fly

i just wanna close m y  e y e s

and take in the sun

and take in the air

i just wanna run

and murder my care

i wanna believe that i will be free  e l s e w h e r e

time to say goodbye // twenty one pilots (cover)

☾

it rained and rained and rained yesterday. i rather like when it rains, though. it means i’m not crying alone.

i’d like to try writing poetry. i keep reading poems online, and they give me such a calm feeling, and it amazes me how even a short poem can stir up so many emotions. i don’t really know how to go about writing poetry, as the only ones i’ve ever written have been along the lines of, “if it can fly, it should die.” any tips would be greatly appreciated. it doesn’t matter how simple you think the tip is. i’m quite clueless and would like all the help i can get.

xo

loren

p.s. this is my 300th post. that’s kind of cool, i guess.

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36 thoughts on “// i’m not okay (i promise) //”

  1. Danielle says:
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    Your blog makes me so sad, Loren. I just wish you could realize how amazing and loved you are. Also, I had anxiety, and one thing that helped me a whole ton was focusing on everything but my fears. I hope that helps.

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  2. Rutvi says:
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    I JUST LISTENED TO THIS SONG ON SPOTIFY. I love it.
    Beautiful photos.

    As for poetry tips, it doesn’t have to rhyme. And also, poetry about rain is always really beautiful.

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  3. isabel 💜 says:
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    i like this.

    poetry is the purest way of expressing yourself through writing.

    this is a silly tip, but really just… let it all out. put it all down on paper (or on an online document). you can always edit later, but at the beginning, just write it all down.

    hope that helped!

    isabel 💜

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  5. The Joys Of Julia says:
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    I don’t know if I can properly express in words how freaking much i love and appreciate your blog. Lets just say its A LOT. ~Julia <3

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  6. Clara says:
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    Whoa, beautiful pictures! I especially love the first one!
    I love poetry. I’m not really good enough at writing it to be giving tips, but one thing that’s helped me is this: carry a notebook or phone with you and write down your thoughts. To create a poem, choose one of the thoughts you’ve written down. It could be “people are weird” or “I like rain” or pretty much anything. Then elaborate on that thought. Explain or describe it, write down other thoughts that are related to it, etc. I hope that makes sense. :)

    -Clara <3

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  7. RubySky says:
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    Love your pictures, friend <3 For me, I like saying poetry before I write it. Taste the words with your tongue before your fingers pen them. Or vice versa. Poetry is the style of writing that has the fewest rules. I guess, for me, poetry is centered around one feeling and I describe it. For instance, my first poem was about the feeling of freedom when you shout at the sea but no one can hear you, and you can say everything you need too. I never said that was what the poem was about, I just showed it. :) Hope that somewhat helps? I'm not a good poet, myself. ;D

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  8. hell0chloe says:
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    Beautiful pictures Lauren, thinking of you. ❤️ Just close your eyes and write what you know, poetry is supposed to be a chaotic mess of emotions on the page, you will find your way .xx

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  10. Kathleen @dollsanddance says:
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    Congrats on your 300th. :) Rain is great, I’m glad you like it.
    I think te more poetry you read, the better you will be at writing it. I know you like Rupi Kaur. Have you ever read Atticus’s poetry? R. h. Sin? Erin hanson (usually her poems are signed “e.h.”)? I think I’m missing a few of my favorites, but those are all really good.

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  11. Allison says:
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    Ah, I LOVE bachelor’s buttons – they’re one of my favorite flowers! I love the color. Ooh, I’ll bet you would be great at writing poetry! I am in no way an expert in that area, but I like poems that describe things in a unique way, a way that makes you think about something ordinary in a new perspective. We have a really neat poem book called “all the small poems and fourteen more,” which has a bunch of poems like that.

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  12. Orchid says:
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    Hi Loren, I’m new to your blog but I love what you’ve written here. Congratulations on your 300th post! That is indeed a special point in time. I aspire to get there one day with my blog, so kudos to you! :-)

    This may or may not be of any help, but one of the best ways to start out writing poetry, or even a prose-verse blend type thing, is to not think about making anything rhyme. At all. Rhyming has almost always become synonymous with poetry, but it doesn’t have to be. In fact, working without paying any attention to rhyme will make the thinking and writing process a lot easier (I think). Something else you could try is staying away from obscure words or phrases. Words such as “life,” “love,” “despair,” etc. can attempt to carry what you’re trying to convey, but won’t go very far. Try to be as original as possible, and have fun along the way. I agree with what others have said, just… let the words come out, let every single ounce of emotion spill onto the page. Don’t hold back, because it’s far better to write everything and omit later than to limit yourself and wonder what could have been. Things can be edited later on. The important thing now is, grab onto that spark of inspiration, hold onto it with both hands, and never let go.

    If this is of any comfort whatsoever, you’re not alone. A couple years ago I would have struggled with poetry to no end. But now, after some experience, and meeting wonderful acquaintances along the way, it’s become so much easier, so much more natural. I tend to write best when mashing up things I observe. For instance:

    “Shreds on the carpet
    shamed a worse practice
    for liberating. It resigned.”

    Not the best example, but you get the idea. Maybe that might be worth a try? Immersing yourself in the works of others also helps. One of my friends LOVES Samuel Beckett, so that might be a good place to start. I’m a fan of Claudia Rankine (if you like hybridization of styles her work is fantastic), Lyn Hejinian and others along those lines. There’s a piece I haven’t read before, but hear is good: “Pity this busy monster, manunkind” by E.E. Cummings. Anyhow, hope this helps in some way! (Sorry it’s so long…)

    Stay positive, Loren, and keep being you. 💗
    ~Orchid

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  14. Indigo says:
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    Hi Loren! I just wanted to let you know that you are an amazing person with a lot of talents. You are one of the best artists and authors that I’ve seen, haha. When I am feeling a lot of self hatred or people joke about me(but I feel bad because I’m a sensitive prick), I try to think about what I like about myself or do the things that I love like playing piano. Maybe blogging or photography could be that thing for you, it’s good to let out your feelings. I hope that helps you when you’re feeling down?
    Oh oh, and sorry if this puts any pressure on you, but are you going to do the writing challenge with the teams and prompts this year?

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