// inspired by the lovely rutvi //
– i’m making an effort to write in my journal again. i’m usually too tired to write anything by the time i get into bed, but my insomnia has been getting really bad lately, which gives me plenty of time to work on it.
– i got a tooth pulled and the entire left side of my face was numb. i couldn’t feel my ear. i even slapped myself a few times and couldn’t feel anything. the numbness didn’t go away for over six hours.
– we played kahoot in math class and my nickname was “jazz band jazz” (deh reference), and someone else was “ya like jazz? 🐝” so it worked out pretty well.
– i get really bad anxiety about posting things on instagram, but i recently managed to share this picture of my neighbor’s dog, ruby. is it dumb that i’m proud of that?
– i have a “folder of shame” on my ipod where i write down dumb things that i’ve said/heard. here’s what i have so far:
“i like school because people are forced to hang out with me.” -a kid in my spanish class
“everyone has pet names for their nipples.” -my brother
“i don’t have a favorite student. i dislike all of you equally.” -my spanish teacher
“my hair is as kinky as you are.” -me, to my brother
“pal is too intimate of a term.” -also me
– i’ve reached 17k on my novel! my mc, taz, is currently attempting to rescue keirnan from what is possibly a cult. idk, i’m making it up as i go. i’m just really glad that i’ve been writing throughout december, because i usually take a “break” after nano, which means never touching my project again.
– i got some new art supplies!! they’re staedtler marker pens and they’re so so nice. i’ve been on a drawing kick because of them. and the cool thing is that i got them for free, because my mom has a $100 gift card to an art store as a thank you for teaching classes at co-op for over a decade.
– why can’t group chats ever be normal?
– my friend q from co-op has been texting me “stranger things?” every hour. i’ve been ignoring him for a week. but i might have to see him soon and it’s going to be really awkward, because how do i explain that i like him well enough but i really don’t want to talk to him? help.
– i had to take a math test today, and i’m 90% sure that i failed. which sucks a lot because i just got my grade up to a b and now it’s going to be ruined. :’)
xo
loren
let's be lost 
I really enjoyed reading this. xx
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i’m glad. :)
xo loren
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Random, but love your boots in the picture!
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thanks! i wear my combat boots so much that they’re starting to fall apart.
xo loren
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I have a brown pair that are starting to cave in on themselves 😂
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that’s sucks, maybe you’ll get a new pair for christmas.
xo loren
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Maybe :)
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That doggie picture is really cute. It’s awesome that you were ok with posting it on Instagram. Also group chats are the weirdest things tbh.
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thanks. :) yeah, i can have fairly normal conversations if i’m talking to just one person, but stick all my friends into one chat and things are going to get weird.
xo loren
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first of all, that picture is ARTSY.
second, yeasssss group chats are so weird!!
lolol I was dyingggg at your folder of shame😂
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omg the queen of artsy pictures complimented me, ahhh
thanks. XD
xo loren
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omg the queen of artsy pictures just called me the queen of artsy pictures😱😱
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omg no way, my “artsy” pictures are just blurry, yours are actually aesthetic.
xo loren
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No yours are actually great but thank you❤️
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we can just both be queens
xo loren
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okay i can share the throne
wanna email
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yeah sure
xo loren
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alrighty
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Group chats are so weird. Once some kids I know got in trouble for texting something during class (I suspect it was a picture of the teacher but with horns).
. Are those the same boots that you got for Christams last year? I just started reading your blog then. (I’m too nervous to comment or do anything social)
Also your brother’s folder of shame quote. Just …what…? What…happened..why…what…just…
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that sounds like something i would do. XD
nah, the ones i got last year are brown with some fluffy white trim. (i love getting your comments, sarah. :) )
apparently he calls his nipples “nipple-y.” idk.
xo loren
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That dog is prettier than me I swear. (Also YESSS I’m glad I’m not the only one who has a folder of shame, although I’m not sure what my folder is called as of right now. XD)
~Marissa
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ruby is prettier than every human i’ve ever met tbh.
i wish i had started my folder of shame earlier, i would have way more weird stuff in there by now.
xo loren
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I do this thing similar to your folder of shame where I go to a public place, stand still and write down the snippets of conversations I hear as people walk past. Usually it’s just the fragments of a sentence, but it’s really cool.
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i’ve thought about doing that, it sounds really fun. i would use the fragments as writing prompts.
xo loren
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That would be cool!
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good news. i’m getting the cell next to you guys. but i got a former drug dealer as my cell mate so we’ll see how that goes.
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mckenna
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that poor former drug dealer is going to beg for a different cell after being around us.
xo loren
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yeah that’s true. i wonder who i’ll end up with once he’s moved?
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mckenna
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my money is on a serial killer.
xo loren
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oh i kinda hope so. we can talk about our murder methods together. we’ll be besties.
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mckenna
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good thing me and n will be in a different cell so we don’t get killed in our sleep.
xo loren
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pfft. he wouldn’t kill me. we’re besties remember. i’ll be fiiiiiiine
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mckenna
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if something were to wrong though at least you guys will hear my screams of terror while i’m brutally murdered and you can call for help. i’ll most likely be dead or bleed out before anyone gets there but maybe he’ll be executed. that would be interesting.
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mckenna
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or he might get even more jail time, that would suck for him. your poor bestie. he’d have get a new cellmate who isn’t nearly as cool or as much fun to murder as you.
xo loren
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yeah that would suck. and thanks, i probably would be fun to murder. but he’d most likely get moved to a more secure area and get a cell mate who’s a super bady. you know like a mass murderer or something. they’d probably have more in common and get along better.
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mckenna
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aw, i ship them.
xo loren
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i made up the word bady cause idk how else to describe mass murderers
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mckenna
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it’s a beautiful word.
xo loren
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thank you
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mckenna
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that dog is so cute 😍
I liked reading this. and remember, small victories are just as worth celebrating as big ones ❤️
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i know. :)
thanks. and i’m glad you enjoyed my post. <3
xo loren
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That doggo is so adorable! Also you’re Spanish teacher is officially my spirit animal
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thanks! haha yeah, i like her a lot.
xo loren
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THOSE QUOTES ARE LEGENDARY. “I dislike all of you equally” that is a MOOD.
Ohhh those pens sound so nice!!
You should do more of these; it was great catching up with you. <3
Ellie | On the Other Side of Reality
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i love my spanish teacher. she sounds completely done with us 24/7.
they’re amazing, i’m so happy to have them.
thanks, i’m sure i’ll do more of these posts in the future. :)
xo loren
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I love what your teacher said, even though it’s………….. (leaving that blank)
Man, it must suck to have insomnia. Do you get sleepy in the day time from the lack of sleep?
Group chats. Wellllllllll we talk about things that are TOTALLY unrelated to the purpose of the group chats, so we end up spamming each other. But anyway, some of the chats are meant to spam in. Oh and, we don’t even really know some of the people in the chat group, because they’re friends of our friends. So weird O.o
About that boy, I have seriously no idea, because I’m clueless in that as well. All the best.
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not really. it’s more i’m just as tired at noon as i am at 2 a.m., and sort of feels like i’m constantly in that state between waking up and really being awake. does that make sense?
i’ve woken up to over a hundred notifications just from a group chat. XD
thanks. he hasn’t texted me at all over the weekend, so that’s good.
xo loren
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I think I know what that feels like. It’s like your body is awake but your mind is sluggish (that’s what I think)
Yeah, some of the group chats my friends are in contain thousands of messages if you don’t check it, coz they send one letter PER MESSAGE! Since I don’t have my own phone yet, they don’t add me in (not that I would like to read thousands of useless spam everyday!)
That’s good. He sounded like a stalker at first.
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Cool post. I love the randomness of it.
My teachers and friends have said things similar to that.
~Emily x
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thanks, emily. :)
xo loren
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I don’t have one “folder of shame”, ’cause I’m not ashamed of it, but I do write down almost every funny, cool, or epic quote I hear down on my phone. There are about four thousand quotes now. I steal them from movies, random people, my role models, my family, bloggers, even you… >:)
—Madi
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mine isn’t called that because i’m ashamed of having it, just because the people whose quotes are in there should be ashamed of what they said.
oh dear, i’m scared now.
xo loren
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Ohh, that makes more sense! People would be surprised about what I’ve written down. Stuff they thought nobody would hear… >:)
BE ASHAMED. Just kidding.
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Hehehehe, I’m going to start a folder of shame on my phone, starting with a kid in my co-op who looked at the elevator weight limit and said; ”Hmm…5,000 pounds max-whoops, Cocoa has to get off!” I punched him. #sorrynotsorry.
-Cocoa-
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