// life, i guess //

// inspired by the lovely rutvi //

– i’m making an effort to write in my journal again. i’m usually too tired to write anything by the time i get into bed, but my insomnia has been getting really bad lately, which gives me plenty of time to work on it.

– i got a tooth pulled and the entire left side of my face was numb. i couldn’t feel my ear. i even slapped myself a few times and couldn’t feel anything. the numbness didn’t go away for over six hours.

– we played kahoot in math class and my nickname was “jazz band jazz” (deh reference), and someone else was “ya like jazz? 🐝” so it worked out pretty well.

– i get really bad anxiety about posting things on instagram, but i recently managed to share this picture of my neighbor’s dog, ruby. is it dumb that i’m proud of that?

– i have a “folder of shame” on my ipod where i write down dumb things that i’ve said/heard. here’s what i have so far:

“i like school because people are forced to hang out with me.” -a kid in my spanish class

“everyone has pet names for their nipples.” -my brother

“i don’t have a favorite student. i dislike all of you equally.” -my spanish teacher

“my hair is as kinky as you are.” -me, to my brother

“pal is too intimate of a term.” -also me

– i’ve reached 17k on my novel! my mc, taz, is currently attempting to rescue keirnan from what is possibly a cult. idk, i’m making it up as i go. i’m just really glad that i’ve been writing throughout december, because i usually take a “break” after nano, which means never touching my project again.

– i got some new art supplies!! they’re staedtler marker pens and they’re so so nice. i’ve been on a drawing kick because of them. and the cool thing is that i got them for free, because my mom has a $100 gift card to an art store as a thank you for teaching classes at co-op for over a decade.


– why can’t group chats ever be normal?

– my friend q from co-op has been texting me “stranger things?” every hour. i’ve been ignoring him for a week. but i might have to see him soon and it’s going to be really awkward, because how do i explain that i like him well enough but i really don’t want to talk to him? help.

– i had to take a math test today, and i’m 90% sure that i failed. which sucks a lot because i just got my grade up to a b and now it’s going to be ruined. :’)



54 thoughts on “// life, i guess //

  1. Sarah says:

    Group chats are so weird. Once some kids I know got in trouble for texting something during class (I suspect it was a picture of the teacher but with horns).
    . Are those the same boots that you got for Christams last year? I just started reading your blog then. (I’m too nervous to comment or do anything social)
    Also your brother’s folder of shame quote. Just …what…? What…happened..why…what…just…

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    • loren ☾ litost says:

      that sounds like something i would do. XD

      nah, the ones i got last year are brown with some fluffy white trim. (i love getting your comments, sarah. :) )

      apparently he calls his nipples “nipple-y.” idk.

      xo loren


  2. Marissa says:

    That dog is prettier than me I swear. (Also YESSS I’m glad I’m not the only one who has a folder of shame, although I’m not sure what my folder is called as of right now. XD)

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  3. gracie chick says:

    I do this thing similar to your folder of shame where I go to a public place, stand still and write down the snippets of conversations I hear as people walk past. Usually it’s just the fragments of a sentence, but it’s really cool.


  4. mckenna says:

    good news. i’m getting the cell next to you guys. but i got a former drug dealer as my cell mate so we’ll see how that goes.




    • loren ☾ litost says:

      i love my spanish teacher. she sounds completely done with us 24/7.

      they’re amazing, i’m so happy to have them.

      thanks, i’m sure i’ll do more of these posts in the future. :)

      xo loren


  5. Starling says:

    I love what your teacher said, even though it’s………….. (leaving that blank)
    Man, it must suck to have insomnia. Do you get sleepy in the day time from the lack of sleep?
    Group chats. Wellllllllll we talk about things that are TOTALLY unrelated to the purpose of the group chats, so we end up spamming each other. But anyway, some of the chats are meant to spam in. Oh and, we don’t even really know some of the people in the chat group, because they’re friends of our friends. So weird O.o
    About that boy, I have seriously no idea, because I’m clueless in that as well. All the best.


    • loren ☾ litost says:

      not really. it’s more i’m just as tired at noon as i am at 2 a.m., and sort of feels like i’m constantly in that state between waking up and really being awake. does that make sense?

      i’ve woken up to over a hundred notifications just from a group chat. XD

      thanks. he hasn’t texted me at all over the weekend, so that’s good.

      xo loren

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      • Starling says:

        I think I know what that feels like. It’s like your body is awake but your mind is sluggish (that’s what I think)

        Yeah, some of the group chats my friends are in contain thousands of messages if you don’t check it, coz they send one letter PER MESSAGE! Since I don’t have my own phone yet, they don’t add me in (not that I would like to read thousands of useless spam everyday!)

        That’s good. He sounded like a stalker at first.

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  6. Madison | MadiGrace.org says:

    I don’t have one “folder of shame”, ’cause I’m not ashamed of it, but I do write down almost every funny, cool, or epic quote I hear down on my phone. There are about four thousand quotes now. I steal them from movies, random people, my role models, my family, bloggers, even you… >:)


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  7. Cocoa says:

    Hehehehe, I’m going to start a folder of shame on my phone, starting with a kid in my co-op who looked at the elevator weight limit and said; ”Hmm…5,000 pounds max-whoops, Cocoa has to get off!” I punched him. #sorrynotsorry.


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